Monday, May 25, 2009
Dunno y... bud juz feel lye bloggin tonite... In chinese there is a saying 人生自古谁无死... saying that one's have to leave that world somedae. I dun fear death n i m nt superstition to tok abt it here. if i were to leave the world somedae i hope that it will be a quick and nt draggy one.buried or cremented doesnt matter. i juz hope my body organs can be use to save ppl who needed them. coz afterall it is juz an icy cold body that is left over. 生老病死 is a cycle. Everyone must face it someday, juz that the timming is different.Life is lye a game, this stage ended, u proceed to another stage. It is so precious and yet so fragile. One must learn to cherish it and cherish the people around you.1 year ago on the 21st may afternoon 1.30pm, my grandfather pass away. it was the hardest dae of my life. that dae was also my graduation dae. it was on the journey back home wif my dad when my mum called and my grandfather has passes away. i breakdown on the bus. He watch me grew up, teach me how to ride bicycle and etc. Among all the grandchildren he dote me mostly. i still remember how he would go down to the coffee shop everydae, sit there and chit chat with his frenz n i would always be there sitting beside him eating peanut slowly listening to them. And there was even once he bought clothes for me. this is what he have nv done to all his grandchildren. I will always remember the moment during my childhood time when i hv done anyting wrong i would always go to him. i knew he would save me any scolding. i also remember the time when he use to fetch me from my kindergarden and bring me to stalls to get my favourite sweets and fruit. Even when later on when i study at hougang,he nv fail to call me everydae after my sch ended. I remembered last year when i told him i started taking driving lesson, he was so happy. so no matter how tired i would be on every sunday morning for the lesson i would also turn and after that i would go to visit him. After his death, i make a promise to him that i would pass the driving no matter how long it take and i did it.On the few dae of his funeral, i was so hoping to see him that i stay up at night at the void deck bud i nv saw him. I knew he was somewhere around. because i can feel the presence of alot of his frenz. i knew that they are back to guide him to whr he should be goin. I always knew that he will be back bud he always nv let me see him. On the few dae of the funeral it was quite hard for me i know i muz not cry . i tried to hold back. i walk over to the playground whr my grandfather use to bring me to and i breakdow. On the last dae of the funeral and i can feel that he was holding to my hand when the funeral was proceeding and i know he is back. I promise him that i must not cry and let him go peacefully.Time flies. it has been 1 year since he is gone. Ard 1 wk ago it was his lunar death anniversary once again i can feel him ard bud nv saw him and he still hold my hand like he use to.There is a chinese saying 今天不知明天事 which mean u nv know wad is gonna happen tmr. If i am gonna be dead tmr i hope that my frenz will nt be sad. because i do nt fear dead, as i believe 该来的终究还是会来的。
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